So,I was totally allowing EVERYTHING get to me. And, I ended up getting a DWI. My fiancee broke EVERYTHING off with me. Seriously, NO feelings at all. But, I'm seeing a new therapist and I have felt SO free to say to him ALL of the things that I've never felt like I was allowed to say before. My ex-fiancee probably didn't deserve HALF of the resentment that I've been carrying with me. But, you know what? I have realzed that it is SO cathartic to tell somone exactly what you are feeling. And, that is EXACTLY what I did.
No. This is not how I planned my life out to be. But, God has blessed me SO MUCH with all of the lessons he has taught me:
1. I have learned that it is OK to tell someone how you feel.
2. Just because someone is confident, does NOT mean they are right. (Ok, so you didn't get a DWI, but don't tell yourself that you are a spiritual leader because you say the right words and pray before meals.)
3. You cannot have a good relationship if you do nothing but try to be who someone else thinks you should be.
Do yourselves a favor and spend time with God. That sounds holier than though but, I promise you, no one is goung to love you as deeply as GOD does. That's where it's at. God loves us unconditionally. Seriously.