Identity Amnesia

"She woke up one morning and FINALLY remembered who she was and decided she didn't want to feel that way anymore, or EVER again.  In that one moment, the game completely changed."

This blog post has been in the works for quite some time.  It is the result of a very long healing process that God has been leading me through.  It has taken a while for me to share it with you because there were a LOT of layers to sort through.

The above quote is actually two quotes that I found on Pinterest a while back that I mushed together.  They really resonated with me...and then one day (very recently), I FINALLY knew. I was actually remembering who I am.  And now, it's time.  The game is completely changing.  I am finally ready for the next exciting chapter in my life.  A season of sharing my story of God's grace and mercy in my life. 

There is a severe epidemic going on right now that I think is so embedded into our culture and our damaged psyches that I don't think anyone really even knows that it's happening.  I'm going to call it "Identity Amnesia".  I would say, from my very professional and extensive research (of my own opinion) that the majority of people walking around today are suffering from this.

It's why people are self-medicating and walking around wishing that they knew why they feel the way they do.  It's the reason why very few people are really doing what they have a passion for and settle for a job that will just pay the bills.  It's why people become suicidal OR become predators and hurt others.  I truly believe that this is at the very core of why our world is SO very broken...and yet it is widely accepted and left to flourish.

Let's pretend that you have just invented something.  You have spent all of your time and energy making sure that it will be just right and will fulfill the purpose for which it is made.  You are so very proud.  It is an extension of you because you put so much of YOU into it.  It is your pride and joy!  The very first thing you do is go to get a patent on it.  Why? Because it is YOUR creation and this is your chance to make it official, put your stamp on it, and then proudly put into detail the reason you created it, it's purpose, all of it's cool/unique features that set it apart from anything else out there, and last but not least, it protects your creation from being claimed by anyone else for their own use.

WE are God's creation.  Each and every one of us was uniquely made BY GOD for an individual purpose that he specifically equips us for.  Unfortunately, Satan tries to claim us as his own and use us for his own motives.  If we fall into his trap, over time we forget who we really are, what we are called to do and why we exist.  Allow me to use an object reference here to explain my point...

A scented candle was created to envelop anyone who breathes it in with a sweet aroma.  It was created with a good purpose in mind.  However, it can't truly fulfill it's purpose without a flame.  Fire is the key to bringing out the intensity of the candle's fragrance.  The same can be said of us.  Sometimes we must endure some very difficult trials through fire. God doesn't set our lives on fire to hurt us.  No, that's Satan's intention.  He wants us to focus on the flames.  He knows that if we never see past our problems, our strongholds, our despair, and our brokenness that we will eventually get burned out and may even end up with scars from the very fire that was meant to bring about the very best in us.  And, sadly, many of us get stuck there and eventually completely lose sight of our identity as God's fearfully and wonderfully made children. 

I don't say this to you from an ivory tower.  I say this to you as someone who has spent the last three years of my life being set on fire in every way you can imagine.  And I won't lie...I almost let it consume me.  But, God never threw up His hands and gave up on me.  He never allowed Satan to steal me away from Him.  Instead, he continually brought my focus away from the flames and back to Him through His grace and mercy.

This verse is the very essence of God's purpose in the midst of our personal trials and tribulations in our lives...

"We can rejoice when we run into problems and trials, for we know that they help us develop endurance.  And endurance develops strength of character, and character creates confidence, (hope and trust in God's purpose for our lives)." Romans 5:3-5

I know that some of you may be dealing with some major problems in your lives right now.  But don't forget who you are and that God knows His plans for your life and they are good plans that will not only bless you in the end but numerous other people, as well...if you let them.  Don't focus on the flames.  Try to remember who you are and how God has continually brought great works out of seemingly impossible situations.  Let your fire shine brightly for those who need the scent of the sweet aroma that is the purpose for which you were created.


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2 thoughts on “Identity Amnesia

  1. Beautifully said. I know you’ve been in that fire a long time and to see you stepping out of that like a phoenix. God uses some of the most broken people for his best work, and he has some GREAT plans for you!! Keep going… you got this!!

  2. I am so proud of you for not only enduring the hardships of the last three years without giving up or giving in, but for allowing God’s grace, peace and joy to be your guide through the battles you faced, and you have come out so much stronger in the process. I can’t wait to see what God has in store for you next.

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