15 "I don’t really understand myself, for I want to do what is right, but I don’t do it. Instead, I do what I hate. 16 But if I know that what I am doing is wrong, this shows that I agree that the law is good. 17 So I am not the one doing wrong; it is sin living in me that does it.
18 And I know that nothing good lives in me, that is, in my sinful nature. I want to do what is right, but I can’t. 19 I want to do what is good, but I don’t. I don’t want to do what is wrong, but I do it anyway. 20 But if I do what I don’t want to do, I am not really the one doing wrong; it is sin living in me that does it."
Ugh, strongholds...am I right? The thing about them is that just when you think you've got them licked, Satan finds a way to worm them right back into your life. Guys, I need prayer this week. I am in a full on battle with myself. I suffer from major anxiety and it seems to be getting the best of me lately. I am in between health insurance right now so I have not been able to refill my normal prescription that helps to alleviate it. Unfortunately, my stronghold when I get to this point, is to dull the anxiety with alcohol.
A lot of people view alcoholism as something that can be controlled with mind over matter. I wish it was that simple. The best way I think I have ever heard it explained was like this... Alcoholics don't become that way because they WANT to be. There is always an underlying cause. Mine just so happens to be my anxiety. When you have anxiety, it feels like you are literally being tortured from the inside out. And anyone who is being tortured will do ANYTHING to make it stop. Therein lies the problem. You KNOW it's not a healthy solution. You KNOW you are opening yourself up to all of the problems associated with drinking too much...what it does to your relationships, your health, your freedom. And yet, they are called strongholds for a reason.